Wednesday, December 23, 2009

In Love Again

Baby Jack
John Preston Nydegger
December 1, 2009
9 lbs. 15 oz. 21 inches

I might have thought it impossible, even worried that it was. Yet, I here by let all you know, if you didn't already, that yes, you can fall in love four times in a row. Since Jack has come, I have found myself falling deeper in love with him each day. Those skinny feet, big eyes, and content stature. Those all knowing looks, that I like to think he only gives me. We have a secret language that only the two of us understand. He looks at me with a partially open mouth and I understand his meaning.

His birth wasn't as smooth as Anna's, that is, it wasn't for me. His heartbeat stayed strong and he seemed rather comfortable. He probably had no reason to leave his home of nine months. He liked it in there, I like to think. Yet, with legs out for the count and nothing else seeming to respond to placing an epidural three times and a spinal block not doing its magic, seems trivial mere seconds after. I'd do it again for Jack.
I'd do it again for any of them. Another piece that fits.